Don't give up. Just be you, cause life's too short to be anybody else.

I have noticed a change in me. For a while I didn't know who I was. What I wanted. Who my real friends were and who I was just friends with because that was the 'cool' thing to do. I had things going on and I wanted to just run away from them all. I was confused and innocent. Never having experience anything like this before. I didn't know what the right answer to the problem was. Life was so much like maths. Once constant equation to keep trying to solve. It was no longer the play list I had chosen a few weeks or months ago. The songs were all jumble up, and some were skipping. Others were repeating. The important ones were missing. The people that meant the most slowly felt as though they were drifting further away.

I wanted to move schools. I wanted to forget the friends I had and find new ones. Turn the page and start over on a blank sheet of paper. With nothing but a red margin and a few blue lines to make sure i wrote straight.

But one night as I had almost given up. A phone called changed everything. It was a friend. She said exactly the same thing that every other person had said to me. Only she said it in a way that made me feel guilty for what I was doing. It almost said to me "If you change who your friends are you can forget about me." I realised something about this girl. It was a side I hadn't seen before. I don't know how to describe it but I know it was different.

Things are a bit easier now. I realised running away isn't going to solve anything. But only make things harder with the ones you love. I have stopped caring about what people think and become my own person. And as I looked back through the book I started realising that there are sometimes were you just can't write straight, and your ipod stops working. Even when times are tough you just have to make do with what you have. The tough times come and go but hopefully the people that you trust, love and care don't. You have to have trust in yourself and in the people around you.

I learnt this the hard way. I tried to be the one that everyone likes. I tried to be the bitch. I tried everything in between. But the one thing I didn't try, turns out to be the best fit for me. The simplest and most Corny thing I know. I never actually tried to be myself.

So if there is one thing you get out of my blabbering then I want it to be this. No one ever said life was going to be easy, but someone did promise it would be worth it. Be your own person. Don't try to be anyone else. It's not going to work and your just gonna suffer trying.

Don't give up. Just be you, cause life's too short to be anybody else. Learning the way I did was hard. But I now know I am a stronger and better person because of it.