Parents can go suck balls.

Right now I wish i could just burst into flames. Just like this picture.

Alright so my life doesnt suck. I know that. i actaully have an amazing life and I love it. But I'm so angry right now. I just wanna break things. Throw things. Hit things. Scream at the top of my lungs. Cry.

Music is the only thing getting me through right now. That and my friends. So the guy i like has a girlfriend and im so freakin jealous and angry and k;sjdhasuiof. Yeh he has a girlfriend but now my parents have decided they'd rather go up to pambula a day later, so they dont have to pay $500 but this means that i dont get to see my friends who i only see a year. This means I have to wait another year till i can bawl my eyes out, scream and tell Tom how much i love him and hate him at the same time. Another year till I can have more amazing memories with these people i call probably some of my best friends.

I have so much more to say but the only thing thats comming out right now is ush;dglkjhbd;nfsrwesaibdiucxzb;uiqw;ed and:

FUCKKKKKK.

Another Angry Rant.

Everytime a see a picture or you.

Or a picture of you and her.

I die a little more inside.

Please bury yourself in a hole or i may do it for you.

Soon there is going to be no more Rebecca spirit.

Thanks that would be great.

oh and please dont go round saying changing for you was the best thing i ever did. cause thats so not true. you shouldnt need to change for someone cause they should love you for who you are. Oh and also im pretty sure shes not the only person that always knows how to make you laugh. Pretty sure i've had you pissing yourself a fair few times.

Made you happy that night you got punch in your broken ribs.

Made sure you were okay that nightt you had a fight with Jack.

What about all the stuff you said to me the first time we met.

Did that mean nothing to you.

Do you even remember what you said to me.

All that stuff about a bakery and missing me and just everything.

Did that mean nothing.
Was i just another girl who was "good looking" and probably going to have sex with you. Cause apparently thats what most people think about me.

im done.

I have way to many things I wanna tell you before you leave.

I have so many things I wanna say to you write now.
I wanna scream and hit and yell and swear at you.
And then I wanna cry
And then I wanna sit there with you and just tell you excatly how i feel about you.
And then I wan you to hold me in your arms and say your freaking sorry.

This girl only just realised how lucky she is. I freaking realised it as soon as I met you. You got looks. Your funny. Your nice. She better turn out good. Cause im not the only one you hurt during this. I bet there are so many other girls out that are feeling the same as me.


Lauren says: "My name is Lauren (im not gonna say cause thats mean), im 16 years of age and I just realised that I shoulda open my eyes a while ago. This kid in the photo with me, we've been on and off since year 8-9 so thats 2 -3 years ago now. Just recently we've decided to give each other another shot and it has probably the best decision yet. Maybe this time we can work around things better then what we could 3 years ago. You know how to make me laugh, make me smile, make me happy and all round i love you. Tommy (im not gonna say cause thats mean), , I love you and I never want to lose you again."

I freaking want to cry. If you freaking bring her up im actually going to walk off and cry or maybe i might just cry in front of you. Then you might finally realise what I actually feel.

You suck freaking shit. and I hate the fact the we live so freaking far away cause otherwise i wouldnt be so angry at you cause I would have experienced what shes experiencing now. But the only reason im angry is cause i know what im missing out on.

FUCK YEW I HATE YOU!

One more thing. It would be nice if you didnt completely ignore me, cause I would still like to be your friend.

im done.