Monday, December 7, 2009

Parents can go suck balls.


Right now I wish i could just burst into flames. Just like this picture.
Alright so my life doesnt suck. I know that. i actaully have an amazing life and I love it. But I'm so angry right now. I just wanna break things. Throw things. Hit things. Scream at the top of my lungs. Cry.
Music is the only thing getting me through right now. That and my friends. So the guy i like has a girlfriend and im so freakin jealous and angry and k;sjdhasuiof. Yeh he has a girlfriend but now my parents have decided they'd rather go up to pambula a day later, so they dont have to pay $500 but this means that i dont get to see my friends who i only see a year. This means I have to wait another year till i can bawl my eyes out, scream and tell Tom how much i love him and hate him at the same time. Another year till I can have more amazing memories with these people i call probably some of my best friends.
I have so much more to say but the only thing thats comming out right now is ush;dglkjhbd;nfsrwesaibdiucxzb;uiqw;ed and:
FUCKKKKKK.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Another Angry Rant.


Everytime a see a picture or you.
Or a picture of you and her.
I die a little more inside.
Please bury yourself in a hole or i may do it for you.
Soon there is going to be no more Rebecca spirit.
Thanks that would be great.
oh and please dont go round saying changing for you was the best thing i ever did. cause thats so not true. you shouldnt need to change for someone cause they should love you for who you are. Oh and also im pretty sure shes not the only person that always knows how to make you laugh. Pretty sure i've had you pissing yourself a fair few times.
Made you happy that night you got punch in your broken ribs.
Made sure you were okay that nightt you had a fight with Jack.
What about all the stuff you said to me the first time we met.
Did that mean nothing to you.
Do you even remember what you said to me.
All that stuff about a bakery and missing me and just everything.
Did that mean nothing.
Was i just another girl who was "good looking" and probably going to have sex with you. Cause apparently thats what most people think about me.
im done.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I have way to many things I wanna tell you before you leave.

I have so many things I wanna say to you write now.
I wanna scream and hit and yell and swear at you.
And then I wanna cry
And then I wanna sit there with you and just tell you excatly how i feel about you.
And then I wan you to hold me in your arms and say your freaking sorry.

This girl only just realised how lucky she is. I freaking realised it as soon as I met you. You got looks. Your funny. Your nice. She better turn out good. Cause im not the only one you hurt during this. I bet there are so many other girls out that are feeling the same as me.


Lauren says: "My name is Lauren (im not gonna say cause thats mean), im 16 years of age and I just realised that I shoulda open my eyes a while ago. This kid in the photo with me, we've been on and off since year 8-9 so thats 2 -3 years ago now. Just recently we've decided to give each other another shot and it has probably the best decision yet. Maybe this time we can work around things better then what we could 3 years ago. You know how to make me laugh, make me smile, make me happy and all round i love you. Tommy (im not gonna say cause thats mean), , I love you and I never want to lose you again."

I freaking want to cry. If you freaking bring her up im actually going to walk off and cry or maybe i might just cry in front of you. Then you might finally realise what I actually feel.

You suck freaking shit. and I hate the fact the we live so freaking far away cause otherwise i wouldnt be so angry at you cause I would have experienced what shes experiencing now. But the only reason im angry is cause i know what im missing out on.

FUCK YEW I HATE YOU!
One more thing. It would be nice if you didnt completely ignore me, cause I would still like to be your friend.
im done.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

i win

Fuck YEWW @amandaliveshere this totally owns over yours :)

Friday, November 27, 2009

10 things I like about Beau.

10 things I like/love about Beau Taplin.

I like the way you write the songs,
And the way you do your hair.
I like the way you speak to fans
I like it how you care
I like the fact that you never wear shoes
And the way you make me smile
I like so many things about you, it makes me wish,
That I could have a friend like you to sit with and talk for to hours (okay, so I know that doesn’t rhyme but it’s the truth)

I love the way you love your fans
I like it when you say hi
I like it when your lyrics make me laugh
Even more when they make me cry
I like the way you’re so inspirational
And the fact that you don’t know
How much I look up to you.
Not just a little bit.
But the most out of anyone I know.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Shoulda written this ages ago.



It's sad to see something so amazing turn in to something so devastating.
In the blink of an eye thousands of lives destroyed,
By the orange flames that haunt people dreams.


Walking through the once beautiful village, seeing all the rubble.
Wondering how people survived.
Nothing but ash, blackened trees and rubble.
This is the devastation caused by fire.

@becishere.




Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Can I just say.

Would you please like to stop trying to control my life.

Cause that would be awesome. I have made choice and I would like to stick to it. I don't want to be screwed over again. You of all people should know how it was. I wanted to move schools and just get away from all the crap. And now here you are telling me i should just forgive her. Yeh I know im stubbourn but I have a right to be that way. I have given her way to many chances and to what, just let her abuse the right of my friendship and my forgiveness. To just stand back and have her screw me over again. I'd rather not.

I'm all out of second chances and you can't handle me not being friends with her then fine i wont be friends with you either. You can't keep controlling my life. Last year yeh I needed you more. but now, I can go on just fine with out you cause guess what, I'm a different person to what I was this time last year.

May I also add the time that you decided to bring this up in a conversation was one of the worst considering we were just about to go into an EXAM. Had the fact that i was sitting there want to cry and slap you in the face because it's actaully a really touchy subject.

So if you wouldnt mind I'd like to get on with my life. You may stay in it as long as you don't bring that up again cause I might just walk off.

Oh also I wil not be forgiving her.


FUCK YEWWW

Monday, November 16, 2009

Having a kiddy moment.

Boy are cheats and liars,
There such a big disgrace.
They will tell you anything,
To get to second base....

...ball baseball, he thinks hes gonna score.
If you let him go all the way,
then you are a whore...

...ticulturists study flowers,
Geologists study rocks.
The only thing a guy wants from you,
Is a place to put is cock...

...roaches, beetles, butterflies and bugs.
Nothing makes him happier,
Then a giant pair of jug...

...lers and acrobats
And a dancing bear named chuck,
All boys want to do is..........


FORGET IT NO SUCH LUCK.


Remember when you used to be cool.
Oh how i miss being a kid.
Things were so simple.
  • The only boy problems you had were who was gonna hold your hand when you walked to assembly.
  • Family issue were fighting over whether you were gonna watch Rugrats or High 5.
  • Playground fights were only about whether you got tagged or not in cops and robbers.
  • Failing meant not knowing your 2 times tables.
  • You never experienced a broken heart.
  • And the most pain you were even in was when you broken your arm doing waterfalls off the monkey bars.
  • Going to the principals office was cause you swore in class.
  • All boys had cooties.

Life was so much better then.

over and out.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

what would you do?

Stranger: Hi there, 18m UK here. You?
You: 15.f.aus.
You: oh by the way. im just here to talk not for anything else. and im trying to promote a band. :)
You: but im not being paid for it is just cause im in love with one of the memeber.
You: *members
You: http://www.myspace.com/forourhero
Stranger: hehe, thats sweet of you
Stranger: I'l take a look
You: thanks. that would mean a lot to them i know :).
You: im going to london in a few weeks.
Stranger: they look cool though
Stranger: sweet! I live in London
You: i've never been before. im so excited.
Stranger: are you on a holiday or what?
You: yeh im going on holidays, with my family.
Stranger: nice
Stranger: I hope you find London interesting
Stranger: I really like it though
Stranger: :P
You: yeh i have family living over there so were going to see them for christmas and stuff.
Stranger: ohh nice!
You: all i can say is harrod's tea is AMAZING
Stranger: haha, you like it? Yeah, I think it is amazing aswell
You: yeh. my auntie sends me over tins of the stuff.
Stranger: you want to know something ... I'm actually working in the music business
You: thats soo cool.
Stranger: and I think I maybe could help your friends
Stranger: but I would have to ask them some questions
You: yeh sure. one sec.
Stranger: you got a mailadress or something?
You: umm yeh ill just find it.
Stranger: I don't think its proper to talk about this in a "random stranger chat" :P
You: ahah yeh no i agree. just a sec.
You: well i just spoke to them and they said to message them on myspace and they'll sort it out from there.
Stranger: okey, because I could make them really big
Stranger: but then I also want something in return
You: mmm
You: what do you want?
Stranger: I could make them know all over the world, they would have a lot of mass produced CD's... but if all this is going to be reality, I want you to talk dirty
Stranger: I know this sounds kinda wierd at your age ... but you have no idea how normal that is in music buisness!
You: mm it doees sound odd.
Stranger: I know it does, its normal
Stranger: its your choice

Friday, November 6, 2009

Run the dementors are comming.

I give up. I just can't be bothered anymore. I have two more weeks left of year 10 and then its into the big stuff. Year 11. I don't know what to think yet. I guess I'll know when I get there hey. Anyway giving up is so bad because I just dont care anymore. But I guess it means that next year I can blizt all my subjects and show my parents the onyl reason i didnt care was cause i didnt like it. I wish you could choose your subjects right from year 7. I mean then i woulda actaully tried.

All right i dont actually know what im talking abot when i post things after nine pm dont take anynotice of them cause they dont make sense, especially when Im watching harry potter.

thats all.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Not all things bring happieness and love.

Lair Lair

Hey, I’m so sorry to bother you at such an odd hour. I really need to talk to you. I’m not interrupting anything important am I?

... Oh aha. Well I can call you later, if you want?

... Okay well there’s this girl that I used hang on let me start from the very beginning. In year 9 I became really good friends with these 3 girls called Sarah, Kath and Taylor. It was just the 4 of us and so we became really good friends. After a while Taylor and Sarah started having fights and I felt like I was constantly being thrown back and forth like they were playing a game of bitchyness tennis and I was the ball. One day I would be friends with Taylor and then Sarah would be mad at me and the next day I would be friends with Sarah and Taylor would be mad at me.

... Yeh, it was a bit. But I guess there’s nothing you can do about it. Anyway, they kind of grew out of that and then I had a massive fight with Sarah a few days before she went to Marshmead.

... It’s like an eight weeklong camp and you live in a house of 7 other girl and you learn how to live environmentally friendly and cook and pretty much fend for yourselves for 8 weeks.

... It was. I really enjoyed it.

... Oh yeh the fight was about, well I don’t really know. I guess I just got really stressed about 2 of my closest friends going away and one of which has always been there to look after me. So I guess I was worried that they’d come back and not wanna be friends with me anymore and I’d be left there alone to find new friends. But then Sarah and Taylor went away and things I guess where fine. It was just me and Kath. We’d made some new friends while we were at marshmead and decided to go sit with them. Bell was Kath’s room mate and Rowdy was mine. It was then the 4 of us for the rest of the term. Then Taylor and Sarah came back and it was summer holidays. I came up and met you and didn’t really talk to them much.

... I’m really sorry about that. I didn’t mean to. Now what was I saying? Oh that’s right. We got back to school and Sarah and Taylor came to hang out with me, Kath, Bell and Rowdy. Everything totally changed. It was kind of like Sarah fitted in straight away and totally stole my friends and it was in a way a bit wait not a lot frustrating. I eventually got over that so it was alright.

.....pfft shut up. I did not get jealous. You got jealous. AHAH funny thing is you actually did but lets not talk about that now. Then I just sorta learnt to accept that she was going to continue being friends with my friends. Trying to organise my friend Bell’s birthday party made big problems. Like I know that you’re never going to be able to do something when everyone is available at the same time but we wanted to try.

... Yeh look it is relevant cause otherwise you won’t understand the rest of the story. Okay so shut up and I’ll keep going. Now I can’t remember what I was saying. Good one. Oh yeh that’s right. So I got really pissed off at her because I thought she was trying to make it so I couldn’t be a part of Bell’s birthday which was really annoying and so I got cranky at her then didn’t talk to her for ages. The whole group was really paying for it too. Because she’d come sit with us and be all sad and upset, she wouldn’t say anything and she’d just sit there. When we asked her what was wrong she’d say “Oh, nothing. I’m just tired.” Yeh, well that was bull. Clearly there was something wrong and she just wanted us to feel sorry for her.

... Would you feel sorry for me if I just sat there and made it hard for you to figure out what was the matter? Yeh I didn’t think so. Eventually we got sick of it and stopped asking her and she’d just walk away, or not even come and sit with us. Her odd behaviour stopped for a while. I still wasn’t talking to her but she came and sat with us and started joining in conversation. It was right after Taylor had gotten back from something she went on. Then the other day we were sitting in the shade and cause it was heaps hot and she was lying in the sun, sunbaking. Well I told her that her dress was too short and I could see her undies.
... Yeh I bet you would stare at her. Umm and she just turns around and says “your point?” my other friend Kath goes “Meaning your dress is too short.” She just turned around and put her Ipod in. So Taylor signs to me “do you give me permission to throw these pebbles at her.” I said “Yeh but you gotta ask the others first” so she did.

... Of course Taylor threw the stones at her. She lifts up her head and snaps at us “That totally wasn’t funny” and walks off. The next day she was sitting with us and we were throwing pebbles again but not at her and she came over a puts a handful down Bell’s dress. It was almost like whatever I do is fine but when you do it to me “Imma eat ya face off.” Anyway, I’m really sorry to disturb you. But I needed to off load on to someone and your pretty much the only one that would listen.

... I’ll see you in summer.

... Yeh. Love you too.

Monday, November 2, 2009

The Supernova of super stars.

Beau Taplin.



His name is Beau Taplin. Could very well end up being someone who has had the most influenece on my life with out actaully knowing me personally. I look up to him more then anyone else in my life. Not because im short but because he's so amazing. The way he writes his lyrics. Talks to his fans. Just puts so much effort into his carreer and his passion for what he does and his band is something that I wish I had.

I met him yesterday. I talked to him for the first time.


It was probably a moment I will remember forever. Just standing there looking at him thinking. "This is the sort of person you remember for the rest of your life." I wonder what it would be like to be his friend. Do his friends see the same passion that i do?

I can't think of anything else to write cause whats going on inside my head isnt comming out in words.

Thats all. @becishere



Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I wanna kick you in the shins.

Sometimes I just wanna punch you in the face.
Sometimes I just wanna kick you in the shins.
Sometimes I wish you'd just fall off the face of the earth.
Yep that's right I pretty much hate you at times.

One day you sit there all sad.
waiting for someone to ask you whats wrong.
when we do what do we get.
"Oh, nothing i'm just tired."
The next day you are all chatty and chirpy.
You're like an emotional chameleon.
Each day I come to recess not knowing what to expect.

Sometimes I just wanna punch you in the face.
Sometimes I just wanna kick you in the
shins.
Sometimes I wish you'd just fall off the face of the earth.
Yep that's right I pretty much hate you at
times.

When we throw rocks at you.
You give us evil glares and say.
"That wasn't funny"
But it's alright for you to throw rocks at us.

When we steal your shoes.
You yell.
"GIVE IT BACK. GIVE IT BACK."
Where's your manners.
Where's your class.
Didn't your parents ever teach you how to say
Please and Thank-you.

Sometimes I just wanna punch you in the face.
Sometimes I just wanna kick you in the shins.
Sometimes I wish you'd just fall off the face of the earth.
Yep that's right I pretty much hate you at times.

You tell us off for having a dress thats too short.
But you know what?
Your dress is shorter.

You're stupid.
You're competitive.
You whinge and whine.
You're selfish.
You're a lying, back-stabbing bitch.
Most of all your a slut.

Thats all.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Friday, October 2, 2009

Remember the day when goodbye only meant I'll see you tomorrow?

Bittersweet Goodbye’s
By Rebecca Pollard


My friend and I were sitting on the playground in a caravan park. It was the middle of summer: the sun was out, the sky was an amazing shade of blue and the sun was blazing down. We were sitting on the slide trying to stay out of the heat, watching all the kids jumping on the trampolines.
“Cameron’s a weird last name” said my friend. “What’s your last name?”
I looked over to the small blonde kid jumping on the trampoline and giggled.
“Pollard,” I replied “Yeh, I guess it is.... it’s kinda like having two first names”
“One day” my friend began “I’m gonna have a Bakery. I’ll call it Rolls’ Rolls.”
I laughed at the irony and replied “And I will buy some of your Rolls. They better taste good.”
We laughed together for ages. It was the last day I was going to see him for a year but it was by far the best.

My friend and I haven’t known each other for very long, but long enough to feel comfortable with each other. He treats me like a sister not a friend, tells me things that he probably wouldn’t tell many other people, even his closest friends. Shows a different personality when we’re alone, and a different again when were amongst our friends. It makes me feel kinda special. I guess it’s because he acts so different when it’s just the two of us, he’s so nice and funny and not arrogant like he is amongst his friends. He’s soft and if something hurts him, he’s not afraid to show how he’s feeling. This only happens when it’s just me and him though.

I didn’t know who he was for a while. I just sat on the table or around the trampoline with my other friends admiring how attractive and sexy he was and how good he was at doing tricks on the trampoline. Just by watching him I knew we’d get along well. He look funny and nice and he could do cool flips and tricks on the tramp. For about 3 days he was called the “hot guy in the singlet top”. Finally we got introduced by a mutual friend. My friend and I played a game of ‘Set’ about five minutes after we had just met. Set is a game on the trampoline. It’s kinda like add-ons, but a bit easier and you only do one trick and it’s usually a really hard trick. After trying about 5 times we realised that whoever goes first is always going to win because he could do things I couldn’t and I could do things he couldn’t. He spent the rest of the day trying to teach me a stomach-backflip and I spent the day teaching him how to tic-toc.

After a while, I began to develop a crush on my friend. I mean how couldn’t you, he’s pretty much everything you’d want in a boy. All my girlfriends knew it and thought that they should let him know. At first I did not agree with this at all. What if it made it awkward?
“Oi Tom, come here. I got something to tell you,” the smallest of my friends yelled at the trampoline he was jumping on.
“What.” My friend replied.
“Come here, I need to tell you something!” The little one said again.
My friend hoped of the trampoline and started a private conversation with the smallest of my friends. After a while he looked over at me then went back to jumping on the trampoline. He didn’t say a word to me for the rest of the day. I thought our relationship as friends had gone out the window until the next afternoon, I was sitting on the playground with some of my best friends and my friend was on the other playground with his mates.
“Where do you live?” one of my friends mates asked me.
“Malvern, why?” I replied
“Oh, no reason just...” he started to say
“Mate just shut up!” my friend butted in half way through the sentence. At this point I really wanted to know what was wrong. What had I done? Had I screwed things up forever? What if he never talks to me again? He did talk to me again. After I found out why he was so touchy that day everything was fine.
“Why was he acting all weird?” I asked the blonde kid. He was my friend’s best friend so I knew he would know what was wrong.
“Oh, just the rest of the boys were being asses to him about liking you, he got kinda annoyed at that,” he replied.
“What so he does like me?”
“Yeh, if you didn’t live so far away from him, he would have asked you out.” This then floated around my mind for many days. Everything was back to normal after that. But I had never seen him act like that. He was showing that he does have a soft side and he isn’t as tough as he looks on the inside. This made me like him even more, because he’s not afraid to show what he’s feeling.

The first time I saw my friend angry was strange. He didn’t yell. He didn’t show he was pissed off at anyone. He just sat there. We were sitting in the t.v. room with the rest of our gang and I was running round like a maniac (nothing no one hadn’t already seen me do.) I didn’t really know what was going on, but suddenly he just stood up and left.
“Where’s he going?” I asked the blonde kid. He must have been able to tell I was a bit confused by the look I had on my face.
“I dunno. Go ask him.” He replied. I figured that it was something to do with the two of them so I went looking for my friend. I didn’t have to walk far before I’d found him.
“Oi, what’s up?” I yelled at him “Did ya think you could walk out without saying goodbye and me not notice?”
He laughed, and started walking towards me. “No. Nothing’s up. It’s fine.” He said trying to sound convincing. I still didn’t believe him. But there was not time to ask questions. He already had his arms around me. He looked at me. I guessed there was no escaping what he was going to do next. I mean a brick wall isn’t the easiest thing to get through. He looked at me still with his arms around me. By this time I had mine around him too. I felt nervous, I have no clue why. But the way he looked at me kinda made me feel nervous. Nothing happened. He pulled away and shook his head. I wished at that moment I could read minds so I knew what he was thinking.
“You give amazing hugs.” I said, not knowing what else to say. It was a very awkward situation we had just been in.
“That was an angry hug.” He replied.
“You’re always angry at me” I said, it was true though he always seemed angry at me. I knew he was joking though.
“You know I’m joking though. How could I get angry at you?” He said. This made me feel so warm and fuzzy inside.

Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye? We sat in silence. Just each person enjoying the others presence.
His dad comes over. “Mate, we gotta go.”
My friend looked at me. “Yep. I’ll be there in a minute.”
We fought for the smooth slide. As usual his muscles and strength overed power mine and he got the smooth slide.
Everyone was saying their goodbye and my friend came to me. My friend said as he looked at me with a smile on his face. I looked at him and threw my arms around him.
“I’m gonna miss you Bec.” He said whilst he was hugging me. It was loud enough for me to hear but soft enough for no one else to hear.
“I’m gonna miss you too.” I replied without missing a beat. My heart filled with tears. This had been the best summer yet and it was over as quickly as it had started.




Thursday, September 3, 2009

Don't give up. Just be you, cause life's too short to be anybody else.

I have noticed a change in me. For a while I didn't know who I was. What I wanted. Who my real friends were and who I was just friends with because that was the 'cool' thing to do. I had things going on and I wanted to just run away from them all. I was confused and innocent. Never having experience anything like this before. I didn't know what the right answer to the problem was. Life was so much like maths. Once constant equation to keep trying to solve. It was no longer the play list I had chosen a few weeks or months ago. The songs were all jumble up, and some were skipping. Others were repeating. The important ones were missing. The people that meant the most slowly felt as though they were drifting further away.

I wanted to move schools. I wanted to forget the friends I had and find new ones. Turn the page and start over on a blank sheet of paper. With nothing but a red margin and a few blue lines to make sure i wrote straight.

But one night as I had almost given up. A phone called changed everything. It was a friend. She said exactly the same thing that every other person had said to me. Only she said it in a way that made me feel guilty for what I was doing. It almost said to me "If you change who your friends are you can forget about me." I realised something about this girl. It was a side I hadn't seen before. I don't know how to describe it but I know it was different.

Things are a bit easier now. I realised running away isn't going to solve anything. But only make things harder with the ones you love. I have stopped caring about what people think and become my own person. And as I looked back through the book I started realising that there are sometimes were you just can't write straight, and your ipod stops working. Even when times are tough you just have to make do with what you have. The tough times come and go but hopefully the people that you trust, love and care don't. You have to have trust in yourself and in the people around you.

I learnt this the hard way. I tried to be the one that everyone likes. I tried to be the bitch. I tried everything in between. But the one thing I didn't try, turns out to be the best fit for me. The simplest and most Corny thing I know. I never actually tried to be myself.

So if there is one thing you get out of my blabbering then I want it to be this. No one ever said life was going to be easy, but someone did promise it would be worth it. Be your own person. Don't try to be anyone else. It's not going to work and your just gonna suffer trying.

Don't give up. Just be you, cause life's too short to be anybody else. Learning the way I did was hard. But I now know I am a stronger and better person because of it.

Monday, July 13, 2009

All this lust has got me feeling inspired



Today I went on an adventure :)




- Sprinted to caulfield station cause I was running late :


- Met amanda at Caulfield Station


- Got to Flinders st and met bell and Lauren and found the tram to Highpoint :)


- Played tap tap revenge on bell's ipod touch


- Tried to read a map but failed :)


- Got to highpoint it toook AGES!


- waited for ages tried to get some internet but there wasnt any :(


- Made a short stack sign out of V cans - i am sooo creative




- A gay man from sanity came out and started talking to us


- Sang Shimmy a Go Go with amanda... actually we screamed it


- tried to promote epic fail but the man would let us :@


- waited some more


- Got told shaun was really sick and wasnt alowed to come :(


- me and amanda yelled WE LOVE JIMMY at the top of our lungs :)


- Jimmy loves us


- Finally met bradie and andy


- Ran up told bradie i loved him and hugged him :)

- Gave him my poster

- Got a photo


had an amazing last day with smelly :)

love you alllll lots
peace out
xxxxxxxxxxxx

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it


Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget the ones who don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes you're life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it, the closest people will pull you through it all and will be by your side every step of the way, so open your eyes to the people who mean the most to you, and will always be there for you. make a difference in people lives and never give up faith for those who believe in you. show that you care for the people that mean mostly everything to you.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Best Day of my life!

So yesterday was the 5th of July!!! I went to the Short Stack concert (dont know who they are... google em) then I went to the footy... geelong vs St Kilda!!! My day went like sooo...

- Got there at 9am
- Went to find energy drinks... its early for a sunday morning! (none of the shops were open!)
- Went to the arts center to get cupcakes!
- Lost amanda, Bryony, Jess and Izzy
- Finally they returned with my poster and guess what!!!! IT WAS SIGNED BY SHORT STACK!
- Screamed, hyper ventalated & nearly fainted from excitement and lack of oxygen.. couldnt stop shaking!
- Finally clamed down only to look over the road and see alex! Ran acroos the road... screamed and waved my poster in her face!
- Had to pee 15 mins before the doors opened... ran around the city looking for a maccas :) made it back in time..
- Got in trouble by security... apparently I pushed in (I DIDNT I SWEAR!)
- Finally got in and moshed away to For Our Hero (once again dont know who they are... google them)
- Got pushed to the front bye all the people trying to get to the front!
- Listened to Ellington!!! THE FUCKING MOST AMAZING PEOPLE EVER!
- Got pushed around some more but didnt loose my spot!
- Short stack played
- Shaun spat water at the crowed and it got all over my face and in my mouth!
- Touched andy!!! and shaun cannon balled into the crowd!
- Short stack finished :(
- Got a stack pack
- Went to the footy to see saints vs Cats
- Lost my voice from yelling!
- Saints won the football
- Watched Rove just for Short Stack!

Was exhausted!
but it was the best day of my life!


Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Life's a Bitch!

So the past few weeks have been a little stressful and I thought things would be better but no there not. I got 3 of the 4 exams back today failed science and only just passed maths with a 51%, told mum she told me i wasnt trying hard enough and that I should try harder... if you saw how hard I studied then you too would agree that i tried my best and that I am dissapointed but I dont need my parents telling my i didnt try hard enough..... Then I had a fight with mum because just school is shit and stuff then now because my exams marks brought my summative grade down I cant do the subjects I want next year cause there gonna look at my report and say well shes a dumb shit she cant handle this she's not allowed to do it! Its not my fucking fault you base the science exam on physic (which clearly I dont understand) and the fact that I physically cant do maths... thats not my fault but it doesnt mean I'm not capable does it!!!!

I fucking hate life it should go die in a whole I may as well give up school because apparently trying hard is not enough so trying to please someone by trying hard just isnt going to work because then that wont be enough!

Thats pretty much it......

Monday, June 8, 2009

My favourite post of all

I go away in summer and its the most amazing place ever. It's by the beach in New South Wales and anyway i really enjoy going there and there are such great people and I never stop talking about it during the year…

Anyway so me and my friend were talking about it today and you now all the things i remember about it and stuff and there are so many great memories of the place that I have there and I actually have no one to thank but puberty AHAHA sounds gay I know but yr 6 I was actually quite as a mouse when it came to meeting new people and yr 7 changed that.. I dunno what happened but i just came out of my shell and now I am probably the loudest girl you may know..
So yer i was just getting all upset about it so I thought I would write :)

So the people there are amazing.. in 2006 I met a whole bunch of people and they were my group for like two year and they kinda boosted my confidence and I gradually started driffting from them and strated finding my own friends and then in 2008 I met the most amazing group of boys ever.

There was little arrigent Jack, big jack, tom and Kayle. Then theres me and kira just tagging along. Umm so these kids were all friends with this one guy called Cam who I had known since i was running up and down the Asiles in my nappy with out a top on. Anyway so there all friends and I became really good friends with them and I began to start having a crush on one of them his naame was Tom

Tom and I, we became really close friends and because I was pretty good at doing tricks on the trampoline and he was like amazing so we kinda got competitive with each other and we just became really close friends. And I will always remember our little chat that we had on his last day when he told me he was going to have a bakery and call it something :) not telling what. And when he hugged me and said “I am gonna miss ya Bec” and we hugged each other for ages and i said "I am gonna miss you too" and I actually think i nearly cried because I thought about what a good time we had had together and things like that and even though I only knew him for a few days its was the most amazing few days I had ever spent with someone getting to know someone.

So yer I thought that i would write about it because I dunno I am just having one of those days where you just think about it :(
It makes me sad, I wanna go and tell him every single feeling I have for him right now and that is a long list.

That was like my most favourite post from my Tumblr blog... i dont know why i guess because its actually my true feelings and there was no one with me when i wrote it so i could just completely spill everything that had happened and all my feelings.....

Its a bit depressing to read and each time i read it I cry. So yehh
Peace :)

Thursday, June 4, 2009

A New Beginning

Hey

So this isn't really new to me cause I have a ummm I have a tumblr blog but the person I am following moved to here so I did to. So me as a person umm lets see....
i say the word um a lot, I like talking about useless things and sometimes i dont make a lots of sense. I dont have a shit life, my life is actually quite good and i love it. I got to a privite school but that doesnt mean i am rich. I talk way to much and I am really loud. Thats about it. Actually I have amazing friends and an amazing family and I love them both. Umm I think thats about all :)
okay ciao
xo